How many times can you be walked on before you split in two? How many times can you be walked on and not trip someone.
I live my life in a naive world of trust and mutual respect. I expect what I send out to be returned to me. When will I learn.
I do not like confrontation - I believe only very egocentric people do - and I try like hell to avoid it. I like openness and consideration and honesty and respect. Now class, I'd like to spend a moment with each of those things.
Openness - characterized by ready accessibility and usually generous attitude. This is one of the definitions, but they are all basically the same. I have an open door policy in my work and my life. You ask a question and I will give you an answer, and I will give you that answer in a nurturing and positive manner. No screaming, no subversion, no sneaking. Along those lines... I cannot fix that which I do not know. If there is a problem, talk to me and we'll work through it together. And no PETTY SHIT.
The world seems to run on petty. The further I get from middle school, the closer the drama gets to me. Everyone needs to lighten up a little. Not everyone is out to get you. Not every joke is about you. Not every comment reflects you personally. Not every decision is yours to make.
Consideration - thoughtful and sympathetic regard. In other words thinking of something other than yourself. I feel I am a considerate person. I worry about people when they are ill or stretched too thin. I worry about people when they have had no rest or no time off. I worry about people who close me out because I'm afraid that it's something I have done. I will bend backwards to make your life easier... if you let me and I will do it at cost to myself and with no fanfare. Does anyone know how many bullets I've taken for them? No, because I don't need to broadcast my successes or achievements. Does anyone know how I keep everything together? No, because I don't need sympathy to buoy my ego.
Honesty - is such a lonely word, everyone is so untrue... honesty is hardly ever heard, and mostly what I need from you. Billy Joel said it best, you can't deny that fact.
Respect - to consider worthy of high or special regard. I know when I'm out of my element. I know when I am out of my league. Not only do I know, but I recognize it by giving that person every freedom to explore and freedom to release their greatness. Why is my respect taken as a sign of weakness? Why is my respect used against me?
I DO NOT want to chase people to beg them to allow me to be included in my own activities. I WANT THE SAME RESPECT that I give to everyone else. I DESERVE to be recognized for the things I do. I AM NOT A DOORMAT.